Deep. I have had many comments ‘you are so deep’, ‘why not just stay on the surface, is there anything wrong with it?’. No there is nothing wrong with it but for myself I choose to do more then stare at the surface of the pool wondering if this is all there is to my life.

Now when I work with people, because I choose to move into the pool to discover another world beneath the surface, I also become the invitation for others who have been taught it is a dangerous place to go. Of course below the surface can be perceived as dangerous when as a child no one dared to go there, or worse when they did and tried to tread water for fearing drowning and chaos ensued.

The more safety I have claimed for myself in my body by allowing information to move, the more I do not fear drowning in my own emotions or physical pain. Knowing it is simply information moving, I realize I can never drown because I Am the water. I am the wave that transforms the pool each breath. There are moments of stillness, cloudiness, turbulence, clarity, flow, as well if I choose, stagnation. I am the creator of the pool, I am the pool itself. I had simply forgotten. I had forgotten my divinity and ended up fearing the deepness of the pool because I had forgotten it was me- all me.

The deeper I move into myself the more I see that I create it all. If I create it all I become 100% responsible for my life. As I relax into this the clarity that comes as I stay present to myself and what is moving in me I know many things are manifesting in my life and I get to choose if I stay present to myself or move out into the chaos of what is being created. In this moment within myself I become the ‘I’ of the storm. No need to feel pushed or pulled, simply present being, as the chaos of manifestation whirls around me.

For the last few months I have felt the chaos and recently as I move deeper, I have a great perception of stability within in this moment. Knowing chaos exists within and knowing just as intensity transforms so does chaos as long as I remember who I Am.